im a happy heartless

alhamduillah
even i lost my notes for speech this morning
and got many test
i can through it
but.....
i buat perangai lama
menangis tibe-2
wht should i do
this tears wont stop
im
hopeless

1ST Oct

Its been long since I don’t write

Hell yeah….too busy….but here’s the story… yesterday is a worst day ever

I hate that morons…the shidah,alia, what the fuck are u thinking off??

I think u all realise tht u are pretty?yet actualy not…and it doesn’t seem tht u think u r pretty is a license

For u to act rudely n seing others just for laugh…its not funny!! Jeek at other is not fun at all!!shit!!

Wht a sellfish bulshit!!if only u nk gatal sgt,pegilah memantat dgn boy u!!knp nk susahkn org lain?

Menyusahkn org tahu tak?bile lecture taak ngaja sbb fake atendance korang tuh? I pay a lot to be here..so cant u don’t be fool bitch????

Another story…..farid has come back too me J

Manaf is missing me…. ;)

Raes ike usual… :/

And I strt my smokes back

Urmmm…im alone now,others went home

N some went clubbing,n not here yet…

Who knows? I just tking care of myself….whtever I wnt I’ll do

As long as,it doesn’t bother me…like loosing virginity,,,I’m not into it

3rd Oct

Its 2 am now… yeah…my floor had a fight….no  it is 2 fight

The first is not too exiciting…they just had a mouth fight………….hurmmm

Wht else u wnt expect with gurlz????!!!the second is quite admiring

They had a mouth fight and a fight!!! I love it…. The slim one vs the fatso

But….the fatso is sooo weak…damn it….gurls nowadays…. I think…hve to learn fighting…even u are ass gentle actuly….but we need it at a time…the roughnesssss….and im also…ass gentle as fur..but try me if u got me burn>>>>

18th Sept

What more than me? Its seems so hard…so difficult for me…to survive..in this

Sad memory,traffic of people…judging and critising only

What more than me, Farid? What more than me Manaf? What more than me!!

I hate this… I have my own desire too, why you all being so selfish?

What more than me? If I can only thinking of u guys, ur importance

Why don’t u?

What more than me? Why I have to face these all…godamnit! !

Deep in my heart,its still bleeding inside

19th Sept

I’m feeling alone today… and afraid what to learn

For tomorrow tasks… I hope I manage to handle it… im a bit missing farid and daus…

We had been together, in long gap…it’s a beautiful lie,if I said I not even remember them…

As I still can remember fat(fazly) its had been 7 years ago… whenever the hujan’s songs is played

Sometimes I wish, I will drown in time,which all the good things not have to end…

When ayah still love me, when manaf still with me, when farid met me, when wan brought amoy to me, when I am pretty and slim, and when I had a good time with daus,at the park…

I always think in every relation….how it wil end up? Is it good?or worse?how he will treat me?is he will take care of me? Or denying me?

How…to not feel being betrayed,and satisfy with my own ugly shape….

Yeah…im not a grteful person…how wil I be grateful?when the one tht I love,will go to others…

Yeah, I hd mny others to love me…but, do I could love them?

My heart is like rock, its hard to forget, and hard to love

What do I do?

a bit about the years

dah lame sangat rasenye

syah tak menjenguk diari maya nih

terasa kekosongn sangat

hidup jauh mcm ni

sangat terasa and mengenal

who is friends and foe

skrg da ad brdbnd

alhamduillah

somega allah memurahkn rezki 

aisyah