life...

my life recently past with  such a hectic days.....

that's why i rarely blog,

to those who asked, how about Omar....

he's gone... :D

cuz, i don't think that we suit each other, yes.... i like him

but, its temporary for us, he and i demand on differ things n taught

but

i'm in middle of something now

i love ucuk, and James

i do care...

i feel fear to lose both, but

i and ucuk sometimes reached the hard levels which is my fault

i ignore his call, and rarely have time for him

while James he..... always want to be with me

sometimes i don't know how to act

i always think about him, 

but i'm that girl who will appreciate on having my own time n space

both men, do care n love me

willing to help and sacrifices

until i felt

to let go both men

cuz, i felt like i am mean

n i don't like to feel im hurting peoples continuously